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The Harlequin :: Гамильтон Лорел
Страница: 17 из 330If I hadn't been too embarrassed, I'd havepicked the first time we had intercourse as the anniversary date. I just couldn't figure out how to explain to friends why that date.
Jean-Claude sighed, and it wasn't sexual this time, just frustrated, I think. «I wanted this almost-anniversary to go well, tonight, ma petite . Not just for your sake, and Nathaniel's, but if he can work you through your reluctance to be romantic, then the rest of us might have a chance to celebrate special days with you, as well.»
«And what date would you pick as our anniversary?» I asked, in a voice thick with sarcasm.
«The first night we made love, for that is the night that you truly let yourself love me.»
«Damn it, you've thought about this.»
«Why does sentiment make you so uncomfortable, ma petite ?»
I'd have loved to answer him, but I couldn't. Truthfully, I wasn't sure. «I don't know, and I'm sorry that I'm such a pain in the ass. I'm sorry that I don't let you and the rest of the guys do all the romantic gestures you want. I'm sorry that it's so hard to be in love with me.»
«Now, you are being too hard on yourself.»
«I'm scared, I'm angry, I'm frustrated, and I don't want to fight with you, because it's not your fault. But now, thanks to what you just said, I don't feel like I can cancel the date with Nathaniel tonight.» I thought about what I'd just said. «You bastard, you did this on purpose. You manipulated me into keeping the date with Nathaniel.»
«Perhaps, but you are his first real girlfriend, and he is twenty. It is important to him, this night.»
«He's dating me, not you.»
« Oui , but if all the men in your life are happy, you are happier, and it makes my life easier.»
That made me laugh. «You bastard.»
«And I did not lie, ma petite , I would love to celebrate once a year the first night you came to me. If your first attempt at a modest celebration fails, then the larger, more romantic gestures will never come to pass. I want them to come to pass.»
I sighed and leaned my head against the phone receiver. I heard him saying, « Ma petite, ma petite , are you still there?»
I put the receiver back to my mouth and said, «I'm here. Not happy, but I'm here. I'll go, but there won't be time to change now.»
«I am sure that Nathaniel would much rather you go on this almost-anniversary than that you are dressed a certain way.»
«Spoken from the man who most often dresses me in fetish wear.»
«Not as often as I would like.
Jean-Claude sighed, and it wasn't sexual this time, just frustrated, I think. «I wanted this almost-anniversary to go well, tonight, ma petite . Not just for your sake, and Nathaniel's, but if he can work you through your reluctance to be romantic, then the rest of us might have a chance to celebrate special days with you, as well.»
«And what date would you pick as our anniversary?» I asked, in a voice thick with sarcasm.
«The first night we made love, for that is the night that you truly let yourself love me.»
«Damn it, you've thought about this.»
«Why does sentiment make you so uncomfortable, ma petite ?»
I'd have loved to answer him, but I couldn't. Truthfully, I wasn't sure. «I don't know, and I'm sorry that I'm such a pain in the ass. I'm sorry that I don't let you and the rest of the guys do all the romantic gestures you want. I'm sorry that it's so hard to be in love with me.»
«Now, you are being too hard on yourself.»
«I'm scared, I'm angry, I'm frustrated, and I don't want to fight with you, because it's not your fault. But now, thanks to what you just said, I don't feel like I can cancel the date with Nathaniel tonight.» I thought about what I'd just said. «You bastard, you did this on purpose. You manipulated me into keeping the date with Nathaniel.»
«Perhaps, but you are his first real girlfriend, and he is twenty. It is important to him, this night.»
«He's dating me, not you.»
« Oui , but if all the men in your life are happy, you are happier, and it makes my life easier.»
That made me laugh. «You bastard.»
«And I did not lie, ma petite , I would love to celebrate once a year the first night you came to me. If your first attempt at a modest celebration fails, then the larger, more romantic gestures will never come to pass. I want them to come to pass.»
I sighed and leaned my head against the phone receiver. I heard him saying, « Ma petite, ma petite , are you still there?»
I put the receiver back to my mouth and said, «I'm here. Not happy, but I'm here. I'll go, but there won't be time to change now.»
«I am sure that Nathaniel would much rather you go on this almost-anniversary than that you are dressed a certain way.»
«Spoken from the man who most often dresses me in fetish wear.»
«Not as often as I would like.