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The Lovers :: Фармер Филип Хосе
Страница: 96 из 127At the same time he wondered how she could so swiftly, unseen by him, haveunclothed herself.
She smiled and said, 'Remember what you told me the other day? That beautiful passage: God said, Let there be light.'
'We do not need it.'
'I do. I must see you at every moment. The dark would take away half of the pleasure. I want to see you in love.'
She reached upward to adjust the angle of the bedlamp, her breasts rising with the movement and sending an almost intolerable pang through him.
'There. Now I can see your face. Especially, at the moment when I will know best that you love me.'
She extended a foot and touched his knee with her toe. Skin upon skin... it drew him forward as if it were the finger of an angel gently directing him toward destiny. He knelt upon the bed, and she drew back her leg with her toe still placed upon his leg as if it had grown roots into his flesh and could not be dislodged.
'Hal, Hal,' she murmured. 'What have they done to you? What have they done to all your men? I know from what you have told me that they are like you. What have they done? Made you hate instead of love, though they call hate love. Made you half-men so you will turn your drive into yourself and then outward against the enemy. So you will become fierce warriors because you are such timid lovers.'
'That's not true,' he said. 'Not true.'
'I can see you. It is true.'
She removed her foot and placed it beside his knee and said, 'Come closer,' and when he had moved closer, still on his knees, she reached up and pulled him down against her breasts.
'Place your mouth here. Become a baby again. And I will raise you so you forget your hate and know only love. And become a man.'
'Jeannette, Jeannette,' he said hoarsely. He put out his hand to pull the cord of the bedlamp and said, 'Not the light.'
But she put her hand on his and said, 'Yes, the light.'
Then she took her hand away and said, 'All right, Hal. Turn it off. For a little while. If you must go back into the darkness, go far back. Far back. And then be reborn... for a little while. Then, the light.'
'No! let it stay on!' he snarled. 'I am not in my mother's womb. I do not want to go back there; I do not need to. And I will take you as an army takes a city.'
'Don't be a soldier, Hal. Be a lover. You must love me, not rape me. You can't take me, because I will surround you.'
Her hand closed gently on him, and she arched her back slightly, and suddenly he was surrounded. A shock ran through him, comparable to that he had felt when she kissed his neck, but comparable only in kind and not in intensity.
She smiled and said, 'Remember what you told me the other day? That beautiful passage: God said, Let there be light.'
'We do not need it.'
'I do. I must see you at every moment. The dark would take away half of the pleasure. I want to see you in love.'
She reached upward to adjust the angle of the bedlamp, her breasts rising with the movement and sending an almost intolerable pang through him.
'There. Now I can see your face. Especially, at the moment when I will know best that you love me.'
She extended a foot and touched his knee with her toe. Skin upon skin... it drew him forward as if it were the finger of an angel gently directing him toward destiny. He knelt upon the bed, and she drew back her leg with her toe still placed upon his leg as if it had grown roots into his flesh and could not be dislodged.
'Hal, Hal,' she murmured. 'What have they done to you? What have they done to all your men? I know from what you have told me that they are like you. What have they done? Made you hate instead of love, though they call hate love. Made you half-men so you will turn your drive into yourself and then outward against the enemy. So you will become fierce warriors because you are such timid lovers.'
'That's not true,' he said. 'Not true.'
'I can see you. It is true.'
She removed her foot and placed it beside his knee and said, 'Come closer,' and when he had moved closer, still on his knees, she reached up and pulled him down against her breasts.
'Place your mouth here. Become a baby again. And I will raise you so you forget your hate and know only love. And become a man.'
'Jeannette, Jeannette,' he said hoarsely. He put out his hand to pull the cord of the bedlamp and said, 'Not the light.'
But she put her hand on his and said, 'Yes, the light.'
Then she took her hand away and said, 'All right, Hal. Turn it off. For a little while. If you must go back into the darkness, go far back. Far back. And then be reborn... for a little while. Then, the light.'
'No! let it stay on!' he snarled. 'I am not in my mother's womb. I do not want to go back there; I do not need to. And I will take you as an army takes a city.'
'Don't be a soldier, Hal. Be a lover. You must love me, not rape me. You can't take me, because I will surround you.'
Her hand closed gently on him, and she arched her back slightly, and suddenly he was surrounded. A shock ran through him, comparable to that he had felt when she kissed his neck, but comparable only in kind and not in intensity.