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Danse Macabre :: Гамильтон Лорел
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«I remember all this, so what?»
«You needed a man in your life who simply said yes, instead of arguing with you or running his own agenda. You needed someone to put your needs first.» He looked at me, as if he'd been very clear. It wasn't clear to me.
«Doesn't everyone?» I said.
«I think I get it,» Micah said, softly.
I turned to him. «Then tell me.»
«My heart's desire was safety for my people, and a partner powerful enough, passionate enough, to help me save them. We both got what we wanted most, out of each other.»
I frowned, trying to think, then said slowly, «Are you saying that I caused Micah to be everything I needed him to be?» I looked at Jean-Claude. «Are you saying that even now, he's like under my power? That that's why he never argues with me? That he's under a spell?» I looked back at Micah, to see if his face was as horrified as mine felt.
He looked the same as ever, calm, ready to do what was needed. So practical, so… so everything I needed in a man. Shit.
He smiled at me. «Don't look so horrified, Anita.»
«Do you normally argue more than this?»
He shook his head. «I was always pretty easygoing, and years trapped in Chimera's group took care of most of my rebellion. It was too expensive to the people around me to be a smart-ass.»
«Is everything we have just vampire tricks, except I'm the vampire? Is it all a lie?»
«This was the reaction I feared you would have,» Jean-Claude said.
«What reaction am I supposed to have?» I asked, and it was almost a yell.
«You missed part of his point,» Micah said.
«What part?»
«If the ardeur made me into your perfect mate, then it made you into mine. It's a double-edged sword, remember.»
Was I under a spell? My own spell? It was too complicated for me. I turned back to Jean-Claude. «I don't understand this. I mean, if this is true, then how could we not have noticed?»
«But, ma petite , you did notice. Your Nimir-Raj is the first man you have ever had sex with on first meeting. He is the first man you have ever allowed yourself not to push away, is he not?»
I wanted to argue, and I couldn't. Damn it, but I couldn't. «Shit,» I said.
I turned, and looked at Nathaniel. He gave me a gentle smile, like you'd give someone in the doctor's office who just got bad news.
«If this is true about Micah and me, then…»
« Oui, ma petite , the same would be true of Nathaniel.
«I remember all this, so what?»
«You needed a man in your life who simply said yes, instead of arguing with you or running his own agenda. You needed someone to put your needs first.» He looked at me, as if he'd been very clear. It wasn't clear to me.
«Doesn't everyone?» I said.
«I think I get it,» Micah said, softly.
I turned to him. «Then tell me.»
«My heart's desire was safety for my people, and a partner powerful enough, passionate enough, to help me save them. We both got what we wanted most, out of each other.»
I frowned, trying to think, then said slowly, «Are you saying that I caused Micah to be everything I needed him to be?» I looked at Jean-Claude. «Are you saying that even now, he's like under my power? That that's why he never argues with me? That he's under a spell?» I looked back at Micah, to see if his face was as horrified as mine felt.
He looked the same as ever, calm, ready to do what was needed. So practical, so… so everything I needed in a man. Shit.
He smiled at me. «Don't look so horrified, Anita.»
«Do you normally argue more than this?»
He shook his head. «I was always pretty easygoing, and years trapped in Chimera's group took care of most of my rebellion. It was too expensive to the people around me to be a smart-ass.»
«Is everything we have just vampire tricks, except I'm the vampire? Is it all a lie?»
«This was the reaction I feared you would have,» Jean-Claude said.
«What reaction am I supposed to have?» I asked, and it was almost a yell.
«You missed part of his point,» Micah said.
«What part?»
«If the ardeur made me into your perfect mate, then it made you into mine. It's a double-edged sword, remember.»
Was I under a spell? My own spell? It was too complicated for me. I turned back to Jean-Claude. «I don't understand this. I mean, if this is true, then how could we not have noticed?»
«But, ma petite , you did notice. Your Nimir-Raj is the first man you have ever had sex with on first meeting. He is the first man you have ever allowed yourself not to push away, is he not?»
I wanted to argue, and I couldn't. Damn it, but I couldn't. «Shit,» I said.
I turned, and looked at Nathaniel. He gave me a gentle smile, like you'd give someone in the doctor's office who just got bad news.
«If this is true about Micah and me, then…»
« Oui, ma petite , the same would be true of Nathaniel.