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The Harlequin :: Гамильтон Лорел
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«I'm not sure I can meet all your needs, okay? It was one of the things that worried me about us as a couple from the beginning.»
«Then are you okay with me finding someone else to meet those needs? Sex with you, bondage with someone else?» He said it fast, as if he were afraid he'd lose his nerve.
I just stared at him. «Where the hell did this come from?»
«I'm trying to find out what the limits are, Anita, that's all.»
«Do you want someone else?» I asked it, because I had to ask.
«No, but you have other people in your bed, and I'm okay with that, but if you won't meet my needs, then…»
«Are you saying that if I don't come across, you'll break up with me?»
«No, no.» He hid his face with his hands and made a frustrated noise. His energy level swirled back through the car, like hot water spilling across my skin. He swallowed the power back and looked at me. He looked pained. «I need this, Anita. I want to do it with you, but I need it with someone. It's part of who I am sexually; it just is.»
I tried to wrap my mind around letting Nathaniel play sex games with someone else, then come home to me. I couldn't do it. He was right; I was forcing him to share me with other men, but sharing him with another woman… «So what, you'd have tie-up games with someone else, then come home to me?»
«I can find a master who doesn't do sexual contact. I can find someone who will just do the bondage.»
«But bondage is sex for you.»
He nodded. «Sometimes.»
«I can't do this tonight, Nathaniel.»
«I'm not asking you to; just think about it. Decide what you want me to do.»
«You're giving me an ultimatum; I don't deal well with ultimatums.»
«It's not an ultimatum, Anita, it's just true. I love you, and I'm happier with you than I've ever been with anyone for this long. Honestly, I didn't think we'd still be together this long. Seven months is the longest relationship I've ever had. When I thought it would be like all the rest—a few months, then over—it wasn't a big deal. I could behave myself for a few months, until you got tired of me.»
«I'm not tired of you.»
«I know that. In fact, I think you're going to keep me. I didn't expect that.»
«Keep you? You make yourself sound like a lost puppy that I picked up on the street. You don't 'keep' people, Nathaniel.»
«Fine, pick a different word, but we're living together and it's working, and it might last years.
«I'm not sure I can meet all your needs, okay? It was one of the things that worried me about us as a couple from the beginning.»
«Then are you okay with me finding someone else to meet those needs? Sex with you, bondage with someone else?» He said it fast, as if he were afraid he'd lose his nerve.
I just stared at him. «Where the hell did this come from?»
«I'm trying to find out what the limits are, Anita, that's all.»
«Do you want someone else?» I asked it, because I had to ask.
«No, but you have other people in your bed, and I'm okay with that, but if you won't meet my needs, then…»
«Are you saying that if I don't come across, you'll break up with me?»
«No, no.» He hid his face with his hands and made a frustrated noise. His energy level swirled back through the car, like hot water spilling across my skin. He swallowed the power back and looked at me. He looked pained. «I need this, Anita. I want to do it with you, but I need it with someone. It's part of who I am sexually; it just is.»
I tried to wrap my mind around letting Nathaniel play sex games with someone else, then come home to me. I couldn't do it. He was right; I was forcing him to share me with other men, but sharing him with another woman… «So what, you'd have tie-up games with someone else, then come home to me?»
«I can find a master who doesn't do sexual contact. I can find someone who will just do the bondage.»
«But bondage is sex for you.»
He nodded. «Sometimes.»
«I can't do this tonight, Nathaniel.»
«I'm not asking you to; just think about it. Decide what you want me to do.»
«You're giving me an ultimatum; I don't deal well with ultimatums.»
«It's not an ultimatum, Anita, it's just true. I love you, and I'm happier with you than I've ever been with anyone for this long. Honestly, I didn't think we'd still be together this long. Seven months is the longest relationship I've ever had. When I thought it would be like all the rest—a few months, then over—it wasn't a big deal. I could behave myself for a few months, until you got tired of me.»
«I'm not tired of you.»
«I know that. In fact, I think you're going to keep me. I didn't expect that.»
«Keep you? You make yourself sound like a lost puppy that I picked up on the street. You don't 'keep' people, Nathaniel.»
«Fine, pick a different word, but we're living together and it's working, and it might last years.